bleckwoman

Well, this has been the week from hell! I had a rough time at my job all week and that made me stress out a lot. And of course when I stressed out what did I do but turn to the oh so yummy but oh so fattening plate of brownies I made my husband. I don’t know why I did it, I was doing so well and then boom. I did what i promised myself I wouldn’t do ever again. I turned to food for comfort. I have done it all my life and that is what got me to this point. I hate myself for doing that. I tried to make  up for it on the elliptical but I guess that didn’t really help. I only lost 1 pound this week. I feel like I let myself down and everyone else who is supporting me.

I just wish my job wasn’t so stressful, it isn’t the work it’s my principal that is just not a great person to work under.I was his target this week to pick on, and it took it’s toll by Wednesday.  I spent my break from my students in my dark classroom crying. I felt so overwhelmed and targeted. I hope that this week goes better.

I am also going to work even harder this week to loose more weight. I heard on the news this morning that the weather is suppose to get warmer. Maybe I will be able to take a walk tomorrow when I get home from work or something. I do work out on the elliptical at least 3-4 times a week, but can only manage 5-7 minutes at a time. I know I could walk more than 5-7 minutes, if only the weather was nicer outside.  I need to get my husband to help me blow up my resistance ball so I can start using that again too. Maybe I will ask him when I am done with this post.

I joined a group that is trying to loose 10 pounds before V-Day which is in about 2 weeks. I am half way there now and I think that if I work harder this week I will be able to meet that goal in those two weeks.

Well for now I think I have rambled enough. Have a great week everyone. I hope my week is better than this last one.

Well this week in finally over. I thought that it was never going to end. I didn’t get in as much exercise as I had planned this week. I was back to work and with an hour commute home from work it is very late by the time I have a chance to exercise. I am usually already beat by then, after putting in 12 hour days (including the commute both ways) and would rather climb into bed. I did manage though to exercise at least every other day. I have been able to up my time on the eliptical to 7 minutes at a time. That made me feel better. I am feeling better all around. I even managed to loose 3 pounds this week. That made me feel great.

I hope that this week goes well. With my birthday at the end of the week it should. I do dread the birthday cake thing though. Maybe I will use some of my extra weekly points to have a small piece of cake. But then again maybe not. I have been doing so well that I don’t want to get off track.

Well that is all for now.

Well, It has been a week so far and I think I am doing very good. My husband and I bought an eliptical machine yesterday and I tried it out yesterday. I could barely make it for 2 minutes. I use to go to the gym but it has been about a year since I couldn’t afford the monthly payments anymore. I was working out at least 3-4 times a week for about an house a time back then. I could do the eliptical machine for about 20 minutes back then. But the machine at the gym was much more expensive than the one we bought on sale for $150. I just need to work back into it. I just used the machine for like 5 minutes a few minutes ago. That really got my heart rate up there and all that stuff. I figure even if I can do five minutes 2x’s a day for 7 days a week that is a start. Eventually I should be able to do more time on the machine. And once the weather is better I think that I will go walking outside.

Well that is all I have to say for now.