bleckwoman

Well I am back to work. I still think my vacation went by way too quick!!! I can’t believe that I had to go back already! I came home and went for a 30 minute walk. I am exhausted today. I have to get use to being back to work. Well, here is my menu for today: I think I am doing ok!

Breakfast   1 cup oatmeal, 1 banana

Snack: 6 stone wheat crackers, 1tbsp natural peanut butter, 1 apple

Lunch: 1cup low fat cottage cheese, 1 cup grapes, 15 pretzels(I broke the salt off them), 23 almonds

Snack: 1 light yogurt

Dinner: 1 and 1/2 oz turkey sausage, 1 cup whole wheat pasta, 2tsp olive oil, 1 cup milk

Hi all—- I just wanted to post my menu from today. If anyone has any suggestions for me let me know…..I usually do two snacks a day, one in the am and one in the pm, but today I woke up late so I had a late breakfast and didn’t need the second snack.

Breakfast:

3 egg whites, 2 slides reduce calories wheat toast dry, 1 oz low fat cheese

Lunch:

1 cup white rice, 1 cup broccoli, 2 oz low fat cheese, 1 cup grapes

Snack:

6 stone wheat crackers, 1tbsp natural peanut butter

Dinner:

3oz grilled chicken, 1/2 cup mashed potato, 1 cup peas, 1 cup cantalope, 16oz 1%milk

I took my first set of measurements in February. I only took the following measurements at that time: Waist 49   Hips:  57    Chest 47

Tonight I just had my husband help me take new measurements and they are as follows:

Waist: 45    Hips: 54    Chest 45       Left thigh: 25  Right Thigh: 23   Left Arm: 17 1/2

Right Arm: 19

So even though the scale didn’t move this week, I have lost inches since February. Could someone tell me though how I determine how many inches I have lost? do I add up all the inches and say i lost 9 inches? I am new to the whole measurements thing!  But I feel great seeing those numbers shrink! Now I just have to get the scale to get moving again! Maybe tomorrow morning!

Okay so I work really hard and eat very good, and weigh in this morning. The darn scale must be on vacation like me. It didn’t move! It said the same number as it did last week. I am so depressed. So angry, so wanting to scream! I will try weighing in again  tomorrow, for last week I lost an extra pound overnight. Maybe I can loose something today.

My fear  though is that I have hit my wall. It seems like every time I diet, which in my life has been a lot,I  can’t get lower than 270. Now I know it is only one week of not loosing and this is only the second week since I started in January that I haven’t lost, but that thought is still in  the back of my mind. It is my fear, the fear that always sabotages me. It’s like every time I try and I get to that point, the wall gets bigger and bigger and I just can’t get over it.

Now the last time I didn’t loose for a week, people told me well you are doing great, and you have lost so much maybe your body needs a break to catch up and you will loose next week. Maybe that is the case here but what if it’s not? What if I am destine to be 270 pounds the rest of my life?

Buddies I need you now more than ever, I feel like I want to just sit and mope all day and that isn’t going to be good.

I am sorry for such a depressing post, but I had to get all my feelings out before I turned to food for comfort.

I posted new picture of me on my page. I had my hubby take them today. They are of me wearing my size 20 capris that I bought yesterday!

Well, I have been on vacation all week and feel like I have been doing really good with my eating and excellent with my exercise! I have gotten up every morning by 7ama nd had breakfast and then went for a 3 mile walk/run. Well I ran Monday for the first time in my entire life (except for like 3 feet in gym class) and Tueday. But my allergies took over and I decided that because I had a hard enough time breathing as it was walking was all I could handle the rest of the week. I am proud of myself though, 5 days of walking at least 3 miles per day is good!

I also did some shopping this week. I got myself a new pair of capri pants. They are actually a size 20!!!!! Now mind you I bought them from Lane Bryant, so their sizes probably run a bit bigger but a 20 is a 20! And they aren’t the kind that has an all elastic waist either! You actually have to button and zip them!!! I was so excited!! I honestly don’t know when I wore a 20 last! And to think I just got in a size 22 at Easter time in Jeans. Maybe by Memorial Day I will fit in a 20 in Jeans!

So I guess you could say all in all my vacation has been eventful!! I’m off now to get ready for the day!!!

Good morning everyone! I am so excited to be on vacation! I just had to share with you what I did this morning!

Well I just did something I don’t  think I have ever done in my entire life. I just got back from………………………………………… a long walk where I ……………………………………………… started walking first and the decided to try……………………. RUNNING!!!
I walked a bit and then I ran/jogged a bit! I was so  excited!  I probably ran half of the distance I went which I have to drive later to figure out the distance.

I am so excited! I don’t think that I have ever run in my entire life. Ok maybe 3 feet in gym class as a kid, but nothing like this! I feel great! I have so much energy right now! I had to get right on the computer to share with you all! I know that you will all understand  how I feel right now. I can’t wait to try it again tomorrow!

Also yesterday I went to my parents for dinner and found out that I actually now weigh less than my father, which I haven’t in many years!
I can see my next mini goal on the horizon and I will catch it soon!!!

Have a great day everyone!!!!

Well, I am only down one pound t his week!! I thought for sure that I would have done better this week. I walked 5 days this week, I only took off last night because it was raining here, and I have been eating good, not using all my points but coming within 3-5 of my allowance. The only thing I can think is that it was all the stress I have been under this week.
I am on vacation this week and will have more time for myself and be able to relax which is what I need.

Here is my I want list:

I want to have children, more than anything.
I want to be able to shop for clothes that make me look my age not older.
I want to go out somewhere and not be stared at because of my weight but because I am pretty.
I want to feel beautiful both outside and inside.
I want to have my husband tell me I am sexy and believe it.
I want to be able to be a good example to my students.
I want to be able to prove my doctor wrong, that I can do this with out surgery.
I want my husband to be able to life me.
I want to be here for a long time to come.
I want to be healthier and happier.
I want to look in the mirror and see the thin girl I have always dreamed of seeing.

I guess that will do, I could keep going but I will stop.

WOW!! I just realized that I have been dieting and using BuddySlim for 100 days today! I have see so many changes in myself over the last 100 days. Not only have I lost weight, but I have become more confident! I am down to a size 22 and I can’t remember when I was that size before.  I think the most important change I have seen is that when I look in the mirror I no longer see that girl with so many hurts and so many excuses to hide behind my weight.

For the first time in my life I have been following my diet and working hard for more than just a week or two. I haven’t given up and I have continued to loose something almost every week since I started. This time is different, I have made that life change, the one I have always said I would make and didn’t. This time I managed to make it and I have never felt better.

I owe a lot of my strength to all of you on BuddySlim!  When I feel down or when I want to grab some food, I come on here and read all of your messages or see all of your pictures you send me and I forget about the food. I spend sometimes the late hours of the evening reading your blogs to give me the strength that I need to get through a rough day. And when I reach a goal or have a great weigh in the first place I want to run to is my computer to share my good news with all my new friends.

Speaking of accomplishments… on a side note, my husband and I went out to lunch today at Taco Bell (not the best choice I know, but my hubby has been asking for 100 days to go there and I finally said okay lets go) well we sat in a booth, and I normally have trouble fitting comfortably in a booth because of my size. Well today I had a lot of extra room in the booth. I was even able to bring my leg up under me and sit comfy and still have room. I was so excited! No more death traps of a booth!!!! :)  Just had to share this news, it’s exciting to me. LOL

Love you all! Thank for all your support!

This week has been a very busy one for me. I had meetings at work two afternoons and then I went bowling one night. I have managed to exercise 3 days this week, or at least so I thought, but then I thought about it and decided that bowling is exercise and so I have exercised 4 days this week so far. I think it has been a good week so far for meeting my goals. I have done everything I said I would but ……

As I sit here knowing that I have to weigh in tomorrow morning. I am worried, I have been feeling bloated and have been having difficulty using the bathroom. I think it is all this fiber! I have been drinking my water and more water. I have been wondering about whether or not I should take more than just my multivitamin each day. My friend who has been dieting said that I should take something called Fish Oil, and a couple others that I can’t remember the names off. Has anyone else had this problem?? Do you take vitamins?? Any one have suggestions? I am open to ideas!