bleckwoman

OK, here is my attempt at the Heartbreaker homework…

Like so many of the other Heartbreakers, I too have been struggling with my weight since I was very young. Everyone in my family is over weight expect my two brothers. I have been trying to loose weight since I was very young I would say around 13 or so. I tried everything, and nothing I did seemed to work. I would loose weight and just gain it all back.  I was becoming very discouraged, and my doctors weren’t helping. My hubby and I want to have a family more than anything and the weight has put a stop to that. MY doctor told me that there was nothing more she could do to help us try and conceive unless I lost weight. She told me straight out that she didn’t think I could do it all by myself and that she suggests Gastric ByPass surgery. That day when I left her office I was at the lowest point I think I have ever been at. Here was my doctor telling me that I couldn’t do it, and that I would never have children unless I did loose at least 100lb.

That night I came home and I cried and cried and cried some more. When I woke up the next morning  I decided that I was wasn’t going to let that doctor be right. I was going to loose some weight and do it on my own.  Well I found I was struggling and couldn’t do it all alone. I went online and was searching for something to help me. That’s when I found Buddy Slim. I read some blogs and found that the people here were going through the same thing that I was. They were people who would understand what I was going through. For once in my life I was confident that I could do this with the help of my buddies on here.

Buddy Slim has given me the strength and the courage to face the world, and feel comfortable with who I am.  It has been 7 months for me on Buddy Slim and I have lost 57lbs.  I am more than half way to my goal!  Buddy Slim has become a place I can go when I feel overwhelmed. Or I feel like I want to eat something I shouldn’t. I just log on and blog my feelings, and know that someone who respond and give me the strength to fight my urge. When I feeling down I always have a buddy to cheer me up.

I think that part of my problem growing up was that all of my friends were thin and they didn’t understand what it was like to be heavy. When I would go on diets they were not interested in hearing about my issues or how much I really wanted to eat a huge bowl of ice cream. They couldn’t put their selves in my shoes because they had never been over weight and didn’t know how it felt. But on here, everyone has been there, they know what it is like.  I have never found a group of people that I have felt closer to than the people on here.

After being on Buddy Slim for about a month or so I found the Heartbreakers team. I am so thankful that I found them because you are all my rock! You make this battle so much easier, and so much more fun!  I don’t know what I would do with out you all!

I am also very thankful that Buddy Slim helped me find Nicole and Sandy. They have become two of my very good friends. They both know what to do to kick me in the butt and get me moving!!!! Thanks girls! Nicole- I am still aiming for the Oprah show!   Sandy- Thanks for being there and watching over me!

Well I have rambled on long enough. I don’t even know if this makes any sense. I know what I wanted to say, it just doesn’t come out in words that easy!Thanks for reading!