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So get this…. my hubby surprised me today! He packed a picnic lunch and decided to take me to Letchworth State Park about an hour and twenty minutes from here. I had never been there and he decided it would be nice to take me. I was so thrilled!
He even packed me a “good” lunch as he said. He packed a Natural PB and sugar free jelly sandwich for me and a lowfat granola bar and a plum. I could have done with out the granola bar due to it being processed but seeing that, that is all he packed for me I thought that I better eat it.
I took tons of pictures which I will try and post some of them later. We went hiking and saw the three waterfalls there at the park! I even hiked up and down a total of 300 stairs! I got a workout but had such a blast doing it. And my hubby was so awesome to take me!
Well I have to go get dinner started!!! I’ll be back later!

Oh yeah and my WATP videos came in the mail today!!! Yeah!!!!!!!!!!

So as some of my buddies already know. I have had an very emotional week. But I tried not to let it affect my eating. I did have a few mishaps, but nothing I couldn’t bounce back from. I kept on exercising and working hard too. I ended up maintaining this week, but you know what. I am happy with that for the first time in this journey. I didn’t loose, but I didn’t gain either. I lost a lot last week, and my body needs to catch up. I will do this next week. I have realized that as long as what I am doing is healthy then it will come off eventually.

As for my dealings this week. Well the money issues are still there but not as bad as first thought. I can see a light at the end of the tunnel with that.

AS for my coworker finding a new job and leaving me alone at school, well I am going to miss her a lot., But I will make it through.  I was told by a wise friend, that as long as I am there and they are there at school we will be ok. Even though the rest of the teachers on my floor left. I am the only classroom teacher left in the upper grades at school. They are hiring all new teachers. Then there is also the Spanish and Art teachers who will be there on their respective days. But I can make it. I just hope that who ever they hire clicks with me and we can work together. Especially for 6th grade seeing as they would be my team teacher.

Emotionally my “funk” seems to be getting better. Sure there are still days that I sit and feel like doing nothing all day after working out. But then there are days where the world seems like a brighter place. I think my doctor’s visit the other day really helped me with dealing with my funk.  All the good news I got from her made some of the weight on my shoulders disappear. We shall see how this week goes!

Hi all,  first thank you to all who posted on my last blog about my doctor’s visit.  That good news yesterday and feeling on top of the world, well the balloon deflated quick last night.

Mike and I got into a huge fight last night over not having enough money for bills. Needless to say the evening wasn’t continued happiness, I was miserable and didn’t sleep very well. I wish we could just win the lottery or something so that we didn’t have these problems.  I hate fighting with him over it almost every month.

So anyways…. I was suppose to be up early this morning to have time to walk and then go get ready to meet my friend who was taking me to work on my classroom today. Mike “forgot” to wake me up. I rolled over looked at the clock and was like damm, I have to get up I am going to be late. I got up and started my oatmeal, and found myself wondering whether or not I should try to go for a walk. I found myself doing some stretches while cooking breakfast.   I ate breakfast and decided to go for my walk thinking I can just cut it short so I have time to shower and get ready to go. Well I ended up walking almost the entire 4 miles I usually walk, and I did it in less than an hour. I was walking so fast I felt my heart beating and felt great afterwards. I made it back home and got ready and drove to my friends house. When I got there her hubby answered the door and said she had already left for the school. So I figured well she must have forgotten to meet me.  So I got in my car and drove the 15 miles more to school. But on the way she called me and said I didn’t forget you, I took my son to summer school and my hubby thought that I left already. So she said I will meet you at the school.

WEll I get to the school and realize I don’t have my key to get in. Thaankfully the back door was not shut tight. I went in and went up the back stairs.I get to the top of the stairs and standing in the hall was the art teacher. I was very happy to see him and he was smiling away. He said something and I didn’t hear him so I walked over to him and asked him what he said and he said……I SAID ..YOU LOOK GREAT!

I must have turned all shades of red, but it felt sooooo good to get a compliment from another male besides my hubby and other male family members.  That truly made my day, my week, maybe even my month.

I don’t think I stopped smiling from that moment on all day… well until I found out that my coworker the one I work so well with (my team teacher) is not coming back,she found a job at a public school. At that point I hit rock bottom today. We were both crying on the phone and I just felt my heart sink into my stomach. It is going to be hard without her this year..

I am doing better now, I know going to the school was what I really needed today. I spent time with my friends and got some work done, but was able to relax and just let everything go away for a while.  I am thinking of going again maybe as soon as next week.

Thanks for listening… it has been a roller coaster ride for me since yesterday morning, but hopefully I am starting back up the hill to the top! A good thing is during this whole roller coaster ride, I didn’t turn to food for comforter!

Well I had a check up with my doctor today, but not with the doctor who told me I couldn’t loose the weight. It went really well,  I walked in and the first thing that they do is weigh you.  Then the nurse takes you in the room and she was entering my weight into the computer. When I looked over at her eyes were bugged out of her head. I asked her what is wrong and she says the last time you were here you weighed 40 pounds more than you do now, could that be correct? I looked at her and I said yes it is correct , and actually I am still loosing. She just said wow and smiled!

So then the doctor comes in and she tells me that I am doing great. My blood pressure is down to 122/68 and my sugar levels are great. She talked to me about my meds, and told me that I should stop taking my blood pressure meds because they are dangerous to someone who could possibly end up pregnant. She said that even though I am not trying right now, it could happen all on my own due to the fact that my periods are becoming somewhat regular. So I am to stop taking the meds as of today, she said that she doesn’t think I need them any more anyways.

So she says to keep doing what ever it is that I have been doing and she would see me again in 4 months.  So I go back to the doctor December 12, which means I get to take the day off from work to go and then I could do some Christmas shopping afterwards.

I am so pleased with the way the doctor’s visit went. She said to let her know if there are any problems with my meds between now and then.

I  did ask her about my “funk” and she said that it is probably to do with my meds, and she ordered more blood work for me to go to, to check the meds levels again.

I am feeling better today than I have in weeks. I think that hearing the doctor tell me that the other doctor who  told me that I couldn’t do this, was wrong made me realize that everything would be okay. That I have come so far and that I can’t quit now. I am more than half way there. And if she was worried about me being on that one medicine just incase I ended up pregnant than, there is light at the end of the tunnel!!!
Well I have to go get things done! Talk to you soon!

I weighed in this morning and the scale finally moved… are you ready for this one………..It moved  to 254 I met my mini goal and succeeded it by a pound. I couldn’t believe it my self.  Then when I weighed in on here I got this message:  You are loosing weight too fast.. consult your doctor. I lost 4 pounds this week, but I haven’t lost anything in a month. I really don’t think that is too fast. I did what everyone said to do. I kicked it up a notch and  kept plugging along even though I have been in a “funk” lately.

I am happy I lost weight finally, but I am still not feeling myself. I thought for sure that my loosing would make me feel better, but it really hasn’t. Maybe I truly am experiencing a bit of depression. Or my hormones are off. The doctor sent me for blood work and I will find out on Monday. I just seem to cry a lot lately and I am moody which could be my meds.

Well I just wanted to share with all of you who have supported me this week, my great ” joy” for the week.

I have to go get ready to babysit my nephew all day today… I think that might make me feel better. I love that little boy so much! I don’t  think I could love him any more unless he was actually my own child!