So far gone, will I be able to get back….
Well I have gone and fallen off the wagon the last few days, so far off that I don’t know if I can get back on. I took a personal day from work on Friday and spent the day eating everything in my sight and now today we were baking cookies for Christmas ( family tradition) and I was sampling all the cookies. I knew better but I just kept shoving them in my mouth. I haven’t done this stuff like this since I started this journey almost a year ago. I just don’t understand why I am doing it. I have come so far and now I feel like I am sabotaging myself.
I know I need to continue this journey, but I am afriad that I can’t get myself motivated again. I have been trying the last 3 days and it doesn’t seem to work. I tell myself that I am going to stop, but I don’t. I know I am wrong but I am continuing to do it. I am feeling helpless and afraid. I am afraid that I am going to go back to gaining all my weight back.
Watching the Biggest Loser yesterday ( I DVRed it) I understood Bob’s concern for Vicky, that she was going to gain all the weight back after she left the ranch. Because she didn’t learn anything. I was feeling that nightmare as I watched it. But I have learned something, I know that it is important to exercise and eat healthy it makes you feel great. I can give other’s advice, but I can’t seem to take it myself this past couple days, ok couple weeks.
I need a good kick in the butt, I need to find my motivation again, I have lost it and I’m afraid that if I don’t find it soon I am going to continue in this downward spiral.
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Here’s to sending a friendly and hopefully helpful kick in the butt! You can do this! I have struggled with binges myself. You have made good progress and the holidays are definitely difficult. I am way worried about how I’m going to do. But really…..hang in there girl! Treat yourself to something (not food). Are your binges related to emotions? Talk to someone! Hugs!
You know, I have come to the realization…motivation is so fleeting and we can not depend on that too keep us going. Motivation leaves so easy!! I am thinking its more like programming…or whatever…you do it..cause you have to..if you feel like it or not. If you leave it up to emotions to decide…its up and down (or at least for me). So, I’m trying to get to this stage..yeah a comment someone made fired me up to get going again cause it pissed me off…yet, as I look around…I think this is the way to go..just do it..motivation or no…just a thought.
However, you can do this…you can get back on that wagon..and your right..it is hard especially this time of year…i’ve been asking myself..you controlling your food or is my food controlling me…and I’m stubborn enough to not want anything taking contol over me lol
sends a kick in the butt…sure hope that helps lol..kind of fun…can I do it again?? lol
Debbie
Julie, you and I are supposed to be accountable to each other….and yet here we are, both in the ditch. Shall we just lay here and feel sorry for ourselves? I don’t know if I have the strength to help myself right now, let alone anyone else. Just like you said, I’ve been good for so long, thought I had it handled, then…pow. Three days of eating defiantly. Like I’m really showing everyone I can do what I want. But it’s not really what I want, I think I’ve gained about 5 lbs, but I’m afraid to weigh and find out. I start the day good, but then it’s like I’m mad that I can’t have whatever I want and so….? Stupid stuff, like almost a whole carton of frozen yogurt…. cake rolls and coolwhip…even a pop tart with butter on it, for God’s sake! Am I depressed and trying to commit suicide with food? I should be happy, John has a good job, we’re moving into a house… so why do I choose now to do this? This should be my ‘happy time’, and yet………….ARRRRGGGGGhhhh.
One of us had better get out butts out of the ditch and help the other one up…. who’s it gonna be? hmmm?
Julie, the holidays are always hard and so what if you have a few bad days just move a lil more. The cookie thing gets me too. bake one cookie eat two… You have done sooo well this too shall pass. you have it in you so pull your self up and keep on keep’n on..
I’m sorry things are not going so well for you.. they aren’t here either. I posted some motivational things on the forum.. hopefully some if will help you
What you are going through is normal and the HARDEST part about losing weight (in my opinion). I wish I could give you a big ole hug b/c I know all too well what you are going through. That doesn’t make it any easier, I know, but you can and will get through this. You are already past the first step - getting it out there and telling us that you are struggling. I know this is the most difficult time of year to stay on track but we can support each other and get through this.
Hi Sweetie, you can never be to far to jump right back on that wagon. Although everybody here can give you a friendly kick, the big kick has to come from you. Come on girl, you can do it. We keep kicking but you have to keep moving!
You are stronger then you think….come on…do it!
I know exactly what you’re going through and i have made the same mistake. But don’t be angry with yourself or upset that you fell off! Don’t start thinking oh it’s no use. You have a choice when this happens. You can say oh it’s too hard obviously i can’t do it. Or this is just mild speed bump in my journey to a better me. I am going start right back where i left off tomorrow! What you need to do is forgive yourself for this minor set back and get back on track! Maybe re-analyze your goals, and expectations, maybe you set them too high. And then one more suggestion is try writing down exactly what your goals are and why you want to do this. That will help you realise oh ok, that’s why i’m doing it. And just remember where this is taking you, the reward at the end of your journey!!! Sorry it’s so long!