bleckwoman

I don’t know if anyone is interested, but I just started a Labor Day walking challenge. If you want to join go to the forum and leave a post on the thread!
I think this will motivate me and others to walk and get exercise all summer!!!

I was part of the 4th of July walking challenge and I loved it. Now that it is over I was thinking that maybe we should start another one for Labor Day. I know many people said that the challenge helped them push themselves, even if they didn’t make the goal of 100 miles.

So if people are interested I would be willing to start the forum for the Labor Day challenge to say walk 100 miles?  I know the 4th of July challenge really pushed me and I enjoyed it! Let me know if you are interested and I will start the forum!

I am a bit upset with my weigh in this morning. I worked really hard this week working out sometimes 2 hours a day, and for what… I MAINTAINED! According to this tracker I found online I burned 5713 calories this week and worked out for 10 hours. And I didn’t eat anything I shouldn’t have all during the week so how come I didn’t loose? I stayed on track with my points and drank my water, didn’t eat anything with too much sodium. I did everything I should have and according to the tracker for working out, I should have lost almost 2 pounds.

I just don’t understand it. I know I messed up last Saturday with the Easter Chocolate episode, but I didn’t eat 2 pounds worth of weight in that one time. I am just frustrated, I work hard and do what I should and still by body won’t drop the weight. Last year at this time I was dropping 2-3 pounds a week, and now nothing for like weeks at a time or I gain. ARGH!

Now I am heading back to work and won’t be able to find as much time to work out as I did this week. It will be back to maybe 30 minutes a day of working out.  It’s hard when you work so far from home and then have to travel so far to get home. I get home close to 5:30-6pm every night, exercise for 30 minutes, make dinner, correct the papers I bring home, hop on here for a few minutes, back to papers, and then at about 9:30 I usually collapse from exhaustion.

I just don’t know what to do, any more. I get everything right, and yet my body wants to hold on to the weight. HELP!!!

Ok, so I have been struggling with no loss now for months. My teammates suggested that I post my menu and see if anyone has any suggestions for changes. I welcome any suggestions!

I follow the points system from Weight Watchers so the number after the item is it’s point value.  I am allowed 32 points for the day and an extra 35 for the week.  I should also mention that I am diabetic and that is why I eat 5 times a day.

Monday   B-  1 cup oatmeal (2)  banana  (2)   splenda

Morning Snack (MS): light yogurt (2)  4 graham crackers (2)

L- salad/ w/ tomato and light dressing (2)    1 HB egg  (2) orange (1) 100 calorie pack (2) 2 cups V-8 juice (4)

Afternoon Snack (AS) : 1 cup grapes (1) 10 baby carrots (0)

Dinner:  turkey sausage (4)   1/2 cup rice (2) green beans (0) 2 cups milk (4) 1 cup canteloupe (1)

Total for the day : 31 points
Tuesday

B: 1 cup oatmeal (2)  banana  (2)   splenda

Ms: yougurt (2) cup of grapes (1)

L: 2 slices high fiber bread (2)   1 slice turkey bolonga (1)  1 cup cantaloupe (1) 4 graham crackers (2) 1HB egg (2)

AS: 100 cal pack (2) apple (1)

D: turkey burger on High fiber bun (5) mustard(0) salad w/ lite dressing (2)  2 cups milk (4) orange (1)

pt. Total : 30

Wednesday:

B:  1 cup oatmeal (2)  banana  (2)   splenda

Ms: yogurt (2) APPLE (1)

L: 2 slices bread high fiber (2)  slice turkey bologna(1)  cup cantaloupe (1) 100 cal pack (2) 10 carrots (0)

AS: cup grapes (1)

D: pork chop (5) 1/2 cup m potatoes (2) green beans (0) 2 cups milk (4) salad w/ lite dressing (2) banana (2)

Pt total: 29

Thursday :

B: 1 cup oatmeal (2)  banana  (2)   splenda

MS: yogurt (2) orange (1)

L: pork chop (5) salad w/ lite dressing (2) orange (1) 4 graham crackers (2)

AS: cup grapes (1) 10 carrots (0)

D: 3oz baked chicken (3) 1 cup rice (4) steamed broccoli (0) spray butter (1) 2 cups milk (4) 1 cup cantaloupe (1)

Total: 30

Friday:

B:   1 cup oatmeal (2)  banana  (2)   splenda

Ms: yogurt (2) cup of rice krispies (2)

L: 2 slices high fiber bread (2) slice cheese (2) cup grapes (1) 100 cal pack (2)

AS: cup grapes (1) 10 carrots (0)

D:  fish nuggets (6) 15 baked french fries (3) 2cups milk (4) orange (1)

Total : 30

So today was the day! I was so nervous this morning and ended up getting to the doctor early. I checked in and sat there waiting my turn. Finally I was called in and they did all the work up on me and took me to the room to wait for the doctor.

Well when she walked in she started looking at my chart and stuff and she is like you have lost weight. I was like yup! She asked me a bunch of questions about how I was doing it, then she said ” you’re doing good” I felt a rush of pride come over me and I said ” yes I am” and ” I am doing it all on my own, well mostly on my own. I did give all of my buddies here a shout out for being my support team!!!

We talked some more and  she kept telling me I was doing great. She did my exam and then she left the room while I got dressed again and  then I met her in the hall so she could go over some stuff with me. When I walked out of the room, she told me I looked wodnerful and that she wants me to keep going. That I look great!! And the last thing that she said to me was ” I’m proud of you”… I almost wanted to start crying.

My ego got so big after that visit!!!   I am so proud of myself. I am able to do it. I can do this for myself and so that I can have a child.

We also talked about my menstral cycles, being a bit more regular lately. She is happy wth that but woudl like them to be moe regular. She thinks that if I drop more weight it will happen. She also said that just because my cycles are getting more normal doesn’t mean that I  am ovulating, which I need to do in order to conceive. So she showed me how to chart my Basal body temperatures in the morning before I get out of bed. She wants me to do that for a few cycles and see how looks.  She woudl ultimatly like to see me down to 200lb or lower. She thinks that would be the best for me to conceive.

After my appointment today I feel like I have this new energy. I exercised for 30 minuets with the Wii Fit doing aerobics and yoga and strength training. THen I just used my elliptical for 25 minutes. And what makes me the proudest of myself is that I baked chocolate chip cookies the other day, and they are still sitting on the counter. I didn’t touch them all week. In fact I haven’t touched anything that I shoudln’t have been eating all week!  I was lost, but now I am found again. I am back on track and doing better than ever.

Today is the best day I have had in a long time. ” I’m proud of you” I keep playing that over and over in my head, as I see the doctor’s face with a huge smile on it and feel wonderful! Like all my work was worth it!

Curb Mindless Eating
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As I sit here trying to figure out what to say to my doctor tomorrow. I realize, that she might not even be impressed with how I have done in a year. She might not even make mention of it. I am hoping that she does mention how good I have done. I need that extra push.

I have decided one thing though. I am taking a picture of me from before, from where I was when I started. I want to show her how far I have come. I am sure that she probably won’t remember how I looked one year ago.  SHe is my gnyo doctor and she only sees me once a year. I wouldn’t expect her to remember.

So I guess I am just rambling, but I am nervous about tomorrow. I just have this feeling that the appointment won’t go as I have seen it going.

20 minutes on my elliptical so far today! I got an unexpected day off due to a storm hitting the area. We have had really strong winds and they didn’t want the kids outside waiting for the buses. It’s ok with me! I needed a ME day anyways! Even though I am going to be on vacation all next week, but this was a nice surprise!

So I am doing well this week. I wogged 2 miles on Monday and Tuesday, and used the elliptical for 15 minutes yesterday. I have workedout for 1 hour and 20 minutes so far today, but I think I am going to go and play the Wii Fit some more.
I have been eating healthy this week too. Well except a small slip up this morning. I had a handful of Chex Mix and about 10 Candy hearts. But I am back on track and doing fine.

I go in 5 days to see my doctor, and I want to be down some mroe weight before then. I am hoping for a loss this week, but I have a feeling my body won’t cooperate. It hasn’t been for a few months. I think I have been hitting a plateau. I loose and gain back and loose and gain back. But the best thing is I haven’t given up yet.

I am getting excited for Valentine’s day. My hubby and I are going on another date night! We don’t go on many and this will be actually 2 in 3 months!

Well I am going to go do some more Wii Fit….

So I decided to take some time out today from my busy day, and write a blog. I needed some me time!

I just realized that I go to the doctor in a week. Not just any doctor, but the one who told me that I can’t do this on my own. That  I would have to have surgery to get rid of all the weight, that I woudl never be able to do it. It has been a year since I last saw her. I can’t wait to march right into that office on the 17th and show her how far I have come! I want to just see her reaction! I want to shove it in her face that I have lost 65 pounds since 12/28/07! I have this speech planned out in my head, whether or not I actually give it is another story:

I can’t do it my butt! I can do it and thanks to you doc, I have come more than half way! You made me so made, and really depressed for a while. But then I took that anger and I used it to push me! I used it to fuel my motivation!   I was doing this to prove you wrong, but some where along the way I started to do it for me, because it felt good because I realized that I was worth it!  I just have two words to share with you…… I CAN!

So that is what I would really like to say to the doctor on the 17th. I am too reserved and probably won’t say any of it, but at least you all know how I really feel!

Well I am off to get the turkey ready for dinner. I am having company today, my parents are coming to have dinner with my hubby and I!

I woke up this morning to find that yet again my quest to become a mommy didn’t work. I woke up to have an unwanted visitor… TOM is here to ruin my birthday.

I don’t want to deal with this today of all days. Mike and I thought that this time our trying worked. I was having all kinds of unexplained symptoms of being pregnant, but I guess it didn’t work. To have this happen and then to find out in the last month that there are two people at work who  are expecting, one of which isn’t really happy that she is, well this is just a cruel joke to play on me. I feel at my lowest that I have ever been at today.

I should be happy and full of life today, for pete’s sake it’s my birthday, but I don’t even feel like celebrating. All I see if the number 32, and know that my time is running out to be a young mom.

I had all these plans for tody, I was going to get up and go to the eye doctor appointment I had then come home and exercise and then relax the rest of the day.. but I don’t even know if I will do all that. I think I am going to just hide out today…..